A few minutes in the life of my mind That means Forever, am I going to die in 56 years
Or what
Are u looking at me for
Is it
Because I have blue pants on
Or I just blew my nose
Or
Is it
I am fundamentally different from you
Or too much like who you
Really are
It makes sense that I should feel
Interrupted
By lights and sound
After all
Aren’t they amplified ten times
By my strange manic mind
Right now I am not right now
And I know it
I’ve lived enough to know the difference
If I was id be smiling
Or not writing this
In the exact fashion I am
Wow isn’t that neat
NO
It makes me hurt
For some odd reason
Odd like me
True like me
Enflamed and struggling
Looking at the light
Filmy and angled
And kind of torn on the
Waves above
I hurt
I set it down inside
Set it down gently and stupidly so deep
That I forget it
Why
I don’t know
Do I
?
Fear
That word
And me pretending I don’t know what it means
But I know yep I do, very well
From having lived it for a very, very long time
I DO NOT WANT TO ANYMORE
You can live in fear the rest of the world can live in that fear
Or their own variety
I will not
I will cleanse myself
But how
Inside me is GOD
And greatness and truth
Nurture that Luke
Love that Luke
Dwell in that Luke
Don’t fear that Luke
Or deny that Luke
Now I’m yelling
In the mirror like always
And hurting my voice
Arguing and arguing and getting nowhere
Cause I treat myself like shit
Even when I’m trying to help myself
I am one messed up kid
And it feels like I’m eating
A giant strawberry ice cream cone
Just saying that
Screaming that
I AM ONE MESSED UP KID
And I would like to wrap myself up
In toilet paper instead of my problems
And just watch me bust out of this weak ass
Butt Wipe
What a mess my problems
Everywhere beat to hell all over the
Floor of my bathroom with yellow counters
Take your medicine
the omega-3 fish oil pills
You believe stop you from feeling this way
CRAZY AND TRUE AND HELPLESS AND WISE
STARING AND BEARING AND CARING
Drop to your knees and feel something
That’s an order
And the most wonderful tingle gesture of the infinite
Is trickling through my body
Head and scalp and spine and knees and legs and
Heart
And I’m back to feeling again
I’m back to being not so helpless
Next step save world
Why do I do this to myself
Fletch and his Bro mike In Colorado In my backyard
